This post was written by Brenda Warren, Chris’s mother. (She is also Shannan and December’s mother.)

Not the happily ever after we all hoped for...

Signs of apathy include: Disengaging or withdrawing from work, hobbies or spending time with loved ones.

I’ve never had any issue with self motivation, lack of enthusiasm or anything along those lines. But since I’ve finished with Chris’s house I feel like I have no real sense of purpose.

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If you don’t know me, hell even if you do, you would not know how much I struggle on a daily basis. What exactly I struggle with; I am still trying to define.

A Lighthouse isn’t just there during the storm, it’s always there ready to guide you home.

I think my brother got too caught up in chasing the idea of happy rather than just stopping to be happy. He never understood what contentment was and thought “things” would produce his happy.

Written by December Bowles

I broke down yesterday. I cried sitting on a public sidewalk, like a toddler, in front of god & everybody. For you.

You can heal a broken heart maybe, but a grieving heart will never heal. There is a piece of my heart that is gone.

It’s been 2 months, 61 days to be exact, since my brother made the decision to end his life. 61 days since my heart has been whole.

As much as I need to be done with this damn house I’m not ready to be done with it. I’m not done yelling at Chris.

I have made no excuses, this blog is for ME. By sharing my experience, it helps ME. I will not apologize for how I grieve or the healthy outlets I use to process MY grief.

Suicide is expensive y’all

Accountability vs. Blame

The day I woke up brother-less. That has not happened since Dec 22, 1982.

Let’s go back to the night Chris left us….