I’ve been feeling the weight of my suicide survivor grief lately and I just had to put my load down and walk away for a bit.

This post was written by Brenda Warren, Chris’s mother. (She is also Shannan and December’s mother.)

Not the happily ever after we all hoped for...

Signs of apathy include: Disengaging or withdrawing from work, hobbies or spending time with loved ones.

I’ve never had any issue with self motivation, lack of enthusiasm or anything along those lines. But since I’ve finished with Chris’s house I feel like I have no real sense of purpose.

It's World Suicide Prevention Day - Tell Your Sister! We launched our merch store - Tell Your Sister!

If you don’t know me, hell even if you do, you would not know how much I struggle on a daily basis. What exactly I struggle with; I am still trying to define.

A Lighthouse isn’t just there during the storm, it’s always there ready to guide you home.

I think my brother got too caught up in chasing the idea of happy rather than just stopping to be happy. He never understood what contentment was and thought “things” would produce his happy.

Written by December Bowles

I broke down yesterday. I cried sitting on a public sidewalk, like a toddler, in front of god & everybody. For you.

You can heal a broken heart maybe, but a grieving heart will never heal. There is a piece of my heart that is gone.

As much as I need to be done with this damn house I’m not ready to be done with it. I’m not done yelling at Chris.

Christopher William LaCourciere

Dec 22, 1982 - May 30, 2024

It's OK to not be OK - but there will come a time when you are just tired of being not OK. Tired of always being incredibly sad on the inside while seemingly so happy on the outside. Tired of always telling people you are doing OK. Chris was not OK and he was tired of not being OK. I can only hope that he has found the peace that he has always been searching for.